I’m Trying




 I was walking along a trail this morning- a harried day where I had confused schedules and was scrambling to realign and complete everything.


But I had felt the urge to stop for a quick walk to collect myself.


And as I walked I realized I hadn’t yet said my morning prayers even though it was now after 11:00.


I specifically remember (a task that seems to get trickier as I age) thinking that the Lord would actually be good with a walk and talk together.


So I shut off my audio book and just listened to the sounds of nature as I made my way around the large pond. 


And I started in a whisper, “Heavenly Father….”


But only two words came out.


“I’m trying.”


I felt a surge of love and thought of the many times my own children or students have just needed me to know they are trying!!! 


Elder Uchtdorf once testified, “I testify that God is in His heaven. He lives. He knows and loves you. He is mindful of you. He hears your prayers and knows the desires of your heart. He is filled with infinite love for you.”


He knows.


He heats.


I am trying.


And it’s enough.

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